They say time will solve everything, but what if it doesn't? I'm starting to feel kind of scared now. Will this feeling last forever? Do I need to let go, or do I need to make another try and see what will happen? Stay in this hopeless feeling for about another six weeks. Oh my lord, give me some strenght please. I am begging you to make me feel alive again. Just for the moment. I can't see clearly anylonger, so please help me throuhgt this. Couse I can't stand it anymore..

You see, I don't know if I can face it again. The pain, the sadness. The feeling of.. I don't know. Nothing maybe.

Why can you not love me the way I love you? It would make life so much more easier. Sometimes I wonder if there is still a chance you maybe do. I can sit in my room and remeber all the time we spent together. The beach, you holdin my hand, the heat from the sun, you kissing me good night. Oh all these fuckin memories. Why can I not get rid of them?

To end this whole stupid thing, now when you have been taken my heart, may you please at least give it back to me before you turn around and leave again?

I want you so badly. It's my biggest wish.